Sept 20

Hellman today blood/MRI GOOD and now I get MRI every 3 months and blood still remains at once pre month.But I'll take that over the MRI any day!!! (Sept 24) I'm not sleeping very good and I'm depressed over Mischief.His poor back looks so sore and yucky.Our kitten jumps on his back,he licks it.When we try to put something on it he licks it off..My idea is to make a shirt or something to protect his back ha which I'm still working on.We tried a man's tank top hahahah it was so big on him we need something small and so he can move easily!Thank god later today I see my therapist I really need help dealing w/ all crap.Ugh it's just TOOO MUCH ALL AT ONCE! Grandpa dies,I get a brain tumor and my cat has cancer! I mean give me a freaking break!

Sept 05/finished on Sept 08

Mischief's tests results are back he has cancer..I found out today and I haven't stopped crying since we found out.I'm devastate.They said he could have a year or 2 to live and I plan on spending as much time w/ him as I can.I feel so crushed I'm still crying my heart is shattered I thought he'd live till 20.I remember when we found out he had a heart mummer and how scared I felt of losing him.His heart was never an issue.He was healthy other then that.It's too much crap in a small period of time.I held myself together when my beloved grandpa passed,even when I had cancer.But this is too much I can't take anymore bad things happening.I feel my depression flooding back,and I hate it but I can't do anything about it.W/ the way I feel I don't give a damn.Whats the point if I'm just gonna lose everything I love.My heart hurts so bad.