Sept 05/finished on Sept 08

Mischief's tests results are back he has cancer..I found out today and I haven't stopped crying since we found out.I'm devastate.They said he could have a year or 2 to live and I plan on spending as much time w/ him as I can.I feel so crushed I'm still crying my heart is shattered I thought he'd live till 20.I remember when we found out he had a heart mummer and how scared I felt of losing him.His heart was never an issue.He was healthy other then that.It's too much crap in a small period of time.I held myself together when my beloved grandpa passed,even when I had cancer.But this is too much I can't take anymore bad things happening.I feel my depression flooding back,and I hate it but I can't do anything about it.W/ the way I feel I don't give a damn.Whats the point if I'm just gonna lose everything I love.My heart hurts so bad.